What This Means...

I've talked with some people today and the place that I wanted to live is not much of an option. I had found this place and if I lived there it meant that I could have my cat and not worry about getting caught with him. It meant I could have room to breathe. It meant that I could have a space that is "mine".

For so long, I've had this dream of going to college and meeting a cute guy and getting married and starting a family. That dream is what I held tight to when it felt like things weren't going to get better...whenever I felt like God wasn't there. Now, that dream is not happening because I am unable to go to college.

The place where I live right now...sucks! At first it was cool cause I was on my own but then I didn't like it anymore. I kept thinking, 'Don't stress. It's just for a little while. Soon you can go to college.' This was my stopping off place until I could move onto better things.

But what happens now? I want to leave this place behind! If only I knew a rich person that I could borrow the money from!

I don't know...

On the up side, I have a job interview on Friday for a better job! Wish me luck!


My Goals for The Rest of This Year:
* save as much money as I can
* get out of what little debt I have
* settle into my (hopefully) new job
* learn yoga or tai chi
* turn 19
* feel happier in my body

Well, that's all for now.
~Lola~