Life and Getting Older

Lately, I've been noticing all the changes going on.

In about three months, I will be 19 years old. My sister will be 24 the month after that and my brother will be 21. I remember playing in the backyard with them and getting into trouble all the time. Now my sister is planning her wedding and my brother is getting really serious with his girlfriend. It's unreal to think that we are old enough for that. While growing up, it felt like the days drug on and on but now, as I look back, it seems like it was just yesterday that my sister and I were playing with dolls together. I know it sounds corny, but time flies!

Another thing that is unreal to me, is that Ken and Kara actually have a kid. We've always joked with them about it and then they were pregnant and it still didn't feel real, but now they are the proud parents of a very cute little boy and it is so wierd. Ken and Kara are parents! Wow! Freaky! But totally cool!

Things change so fast! Right now I feel really out of place and I know what I want but now may not be the time. One lesson that I've been able to learn is that, though I feel really uncontent right now and I feel like I want things to hurry up, time goes fast. As I sit in my dinky little efficiency apartment, talking to the wall and planning all the ways I could destroy this wretched building, I can take comfort in the fact that this will all be over soon. Time hides it's speed behind a mask of slow, crawing monotony. Joy!
~Lola~